
The 6th day without him. Missing him is my daily routine. Having nightmares still goes on every night. This is only the 6th day i tell myself, don't press myself so hard. If i want miss him, don't stop myself from going FB to look at his account. But everytime I log into FB, I am very scared. Very scared to see something that hurts me. For example, our 2nd anniversary is on 1st of August, FB will remind us that this special day is coming. I wonder did he notice that reminder? How does he feels? And when I thought deeper, I know very well that he will not feel anything. I am also very scared that maybe one day when I sign in FB, he already changed his status to single and that will be the final full stop for this relationship. For me, as long as I am updating this blog, my love for him is still there.
Many people ask me not to held on to this relationship anymore. No, I am not holding on to this relationship, not anymore. I am just loving him and that is what my heart tells me to do. Loving someone no need to be shown and I believe there is no wrong in loving him either.
Another day passed. School is opening soon. I am just hoping to have a happy 2weeks with him, that's all. I just want to keep that love for him in my heart and that is why I want to keep this blog alive. For as long as my heart wants me to do so. Please do not stop me.
Zhihao....I love you...for as long as my heart wants me to.
能不能别没收我的爱?
彩虹-周杰伦
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
肄怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我这么睡得着
你的身影这么近 我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳还是会绕
没有理由 我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 哪能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
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