The 13th day without Cheng Zhi Hao.

The 13th day without him. It feels so terrible not knowing what he is thinking. He did not call me for days and so I called him. He sounds like he has alot of problems but he just did not want to mention. I really do not not know what he is thinking. I have so many questions that I wish to ask him, but I know I can't. Firstly, he might feel irritated if I ask. Secondly, I can't really face the facts of the answers. I did not want to hurt myself again. I do not want to know that he is troubled over the girl he likes. I do not want to know he is not hoping to see me in August. I do not want to know that he doesn't want me to go back and study. I do not want him to tell me to give up on him. And I do not want to know he really does not loves me anymore. I do not want to know any of this which hurts me badly. I do not want to know. i am a coward, I know. But I'm never a coward in loving him.

Zhihao....I'm not afraid to tell you that...I love you.

Everytime-Britney Spears

Notice me take my hand

Why are we strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song is my sorry

At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face you're haunting me

I guess i need you baby